BUT.. what if, letting it go will put you in such sadness because the one you will leave behind is those people dear to you?
Well, that's where I am right now.
For everyone's idea, I am an Altar Server on a church one ride away from my house. From the very start, I was trained there and through all my service, I am assigned to serve there. A year ago, I heard a rumor that the chapel (a few walk away from my house. It's very near compare to the church where I am serving) will become a Parish. I confirmed it, and it was true. Of course, I was really happy about a small chapel will become a Parish after several years. Yet, that happiness accompanies a melancholic possibility that all of the servers who are nearby the church will be transferred there. And I know, I AM ONE OF THEM.
A couple of months ago, we had a meeting and during our quorum, we had commitments on accepting responsibilities as officers. Some of us committed, some of us did not. Me? Yeah. I accepted a job. Two reasons: (1) I thought my situation of being a-possible-transferred-server was settled down that I am going to finish my term (two years) at Phase 1 then I will be transferred down to Phase 8; (2) I like the job of being a secretary. haha.
For the past days, all of those things were swept away. Sorry, most of the things, I mean. All officers were called to attend the meeting in the chapel. So I went there, not expecting that there will be an immediate election of officers. Because of the unstoppable events, I just let myself go with the flow. They needed my immediate response so I had to force my brain to decide to choose. Before those minutes of giving out my decision, I partly expecting that these things would happen. It's kinda hard to weigh both things that are really important to you. It was really hard. In the end, I decided to pick the choice where I can have little damage to ME and to OTHER PARTY involved.
Two days passed by after the night of election, we had our meeting in the Main. I told them that I knew things would happen like this in the end. I didn't just expect that it will be in our way right now. I also added that I didn't know when will be the last day when I will remain as their secretary. Also, I said that one of my natures is when you give a thing to me, I will keep it. BUT when you get it back, I will return it and will never accept it again. That is one of the reasons why I didn't accept the position of secretary in the second election at Phase 8 aside from my hectic schedule. I knew time will come that they will get it from me. And I am ready of it. It's just that, I will never accept it inside my ministry.
Things went light when they told me that I will remain as secretary while they are not yet finding a replacement for me. That time, I was actually prepared if we held a special election for me. I prepared all the documents I made for the ministry. All the minutes, the notes, everything. From the start, I know that they have a hundred percent power to take my position whenever they want because I was only appointed by my president. By the way, (if you read this,) I would like to thank my President and Vice President for giving me this opportunity to become the secretary of our ministry. Haha. Going back, I am ready to accept their decision anytime. :)
In the end, I promise to myself that I will do my best to help my new co-officers at Phase 8- to lift up our ministry from zero, to help each and everyone to start all over again, and to stay where I belong. We promise to our coordinator in Main that we will do our responsibilities and duties with all our heart and mind.
MAYBE this is the challenge that God gave us to think about. Maybe we may be separated from our dearest friends, but we have to be strong to do our commitment to Him. Besides, God will never put us into something that we cannot survive. He always have a better plan for us. FOR ALL OF US. That's why I just trust him for every thing happening to me, including this challenge for me.
I HAVE TO DO WHAT IS RIGHT. I HAVE TO CHOOSE WHAT IS IMPORTANT. I HAVE TO TRUST HIM WILL ALL MY HEART....
Your Toddler Friend,
McDen
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